April 13, 2009 @ 00:05

I like..
to watch people. strangers, people I know, people that catch my eye.

to listen to the rain falling, walk in the rain and get soaked.

to look at the sea. see them break on the shore line, hear them crash against breakwaters.

to look at the sky, be it blue or grey.

to sit in a library and take in the peacefulness, surrounded by books.

to laugh, and find amusement in little things.

to lie down on the bed at the end of a long day, and think through it.

to pen my thoughts down, my innermost reflections, and think through stuff.

to look at someone smile, a true, slow smile.

to talk to ___, sitting cross legged on the bench while looking at the sea.


but recently,

I pluck on mp4s whenever I am alone, to block out the world and its noise.

my mind is too cluttered to appreciate the simple beauty of my walk home from the interchange through the park.

I'm too often lost in my own thoughts to notice someone who needs help.

I've stopped looking around me, to see the simple beauty of nature.

when I ask someone, hey are you ok? I rarely do something about it when they say no.

when I look at something, I dont find things as amusing as I once did.

and I no longer go to you with all my burdens and immediately feel better when you laugh.


...and I wonder, am I losing the joy of living while I live?