May 16, 2009 @ 23:39

signed off from msn at 12.50 last night.
was in bed at 1.

at 1.45 I was literally fighting to breathe,
and it wasnt till 4 till everything settled.

everytime this happens,
I thank god I lived to see the sun rise again.
because until your windpipes fight against you and you need to gasp for every breathe,
you dont truly treasure the breathes that you take.

and I wonder, what if when I am belaying, or holding another person's life in my hands, and this happens, what will happen?

and a whisper of fear will run down my back.