June 17, 2009 @ 23:33

a part of me hates tears, dealing with emotions that are too raw to be comforted. a part of me hates having to deal with irritation and emotions, even those that are my own.

and I guessed that part slipped out because I was too tired, and because I was too helpless. I know I looked calm, sounded calm. but it was easier to distance myself rather than think of what you were going through.

bear, sorry I snapped at you. I cant say I didnt mean it. but yeah, I'm really sorry.


today el just "lepaked around" - quoting michelle. and dont we always. that's like the best thing our level does together. besides watching chickflicks that is. and having pointlessly dumb discussions that become pretty interesting :)

and I am in no mood to blog. nor in a mood for pretty much anything else. but this spate of disinterest has to stop soon, ah.